lyrics of the day:

"Im just tired and bored with myself" - i get that! you ever see yourself doing things which u cant prevent, then feel enormously guilty/ stupid for afterwards? well i do, why do i do it to myself and others?!!

"you cant start a fire, without your little world falling apart" - you cant do anything big or amasing or even move on without ur world being shattered. i mean, next year i have to move out, i will potentially be homeless, i wont see any of my fantastic mates ive made at college and risk losing the most important person in my life, so yeah...im bummed

"i take a look in the mirror, wanna change my clothes, my hair, my face!!"
well i think everyone feels like that sometimes, especially today as im having a simultaneous bad hair/ bad face day (groans)



i feel so frustrated in my own skin, like i cant get anything right, but cant prevent myself from getting anything wrong at the same time. it keeps me awake at night it truly does. everything should be going smoothly, so why do i mess it up?